HAppy New Year!!!!!!!!!!!

10 New year resolutions

1) To be the best among the best in imu (really need to study smart and hard)

2) To really organize up my life and stuff

3) To be a good and best hypnotherapist (hopefully will help a lot of people)

4) To be able to support myself financially ASAP

5) To read all the photostated TCM books

6) To keep myself as fit, healthy and flexible (physical and mentally) as I could

7) To improve on my social skills and attitude

8) To learn up Japanese language

9) To have a collections of good music, movie, pictures, etc

10) To gain back my compassion

Christmas!!!

It's another year of Christmas. And, this time i am back here again in seremban after a short break for haji and exam (after all the internal medicine and surgery posting), not feeling voluntarily to come back actually.Haha. It took me 5 hours of driving from my hometown in Kedah to reach here with backache (old injury) and and neck pain. Anyway, manage to find my way through smoothly this time without getting lost anywhere as my directional sense is still developing.Hehe. Feeling rather under mood recently as my performance in the exam was really bad and it’s preventable if I remain calm and study more before this. Anyway, it’s time for me to put myself really on work now since there will be lots of things which futher awaiting me in the near future- IMS talk, ID epidemiology research, Hypnosis assignment and family medicine posting learning.

My house which is still under renovation since last year finally gets it shape done but yet the whole house as my dad was the only renovator around. Hopefully all the renovation work will be finished by next year, can’t say when but soon. It’s wasn’t as fruitful going back home this time as I was planning to try at least regain some emotional charges to get me going for the next few months at least. I was busy with all the housework and some other stuffs including servicing the car which actually scrap a a lot from my pocket. I need to spend it anyway, it’s just timing problem.Haha

By the way, i don't really celebrate christmas but i used to enjoy watching all the christmas cartoon.

What is this?

hmm...wondering what the high-tech structure is? Haha, it looks so familiar and alien at the same time.I really had passed back all my chemical study to my secondary school and matrics teacher long long time ago. This few days has been my busy days, definitely with the incoming Internal medicine and Surgery posting exam. Well, i sort of losses all the ideas of how to keep myself onto my study actually.Hehe, i mean i was unable to concentrate well and the worst thing is that i am still allowing myself to watch online chinese video series. Die...... Half way studying, i came across the name CLOPIDOGREL, a medication indicated especially for stroke patient to prevent further thromboembolism complications. Clopidogrel is actually
(+)-(S)-methyl 2-(2-chlorophenyl)-2-(6,7-dihydrothieno[3,2-c]pyridin-5(4H)-yl)
acetate
by the chemical name which i don't really know what it is...Haha
Anyway, it act by inhibiting the glycoprtein IIa/IIIb pathway, so called adesosine diphosphate inhibitor that is use to prevent platelet aggregation. By right, i should be familiarise myself with this name long long time ago before i actually come to my phase II medical study. However, i am still getting myself familiarize with all the drugs name and it's pharmacology. Hopefully, i will be able to master it easily in the near future.....

Friendship???

I wonder what friends really constitute in our life?

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headache ECG readings!!!

Now, another day of mine in hospital hopping around and doing nothing much.

Talking about ECG-electrocardiography, it's really giving me a bad time. It's already the last 2 week of my posting and i am still in doubt whether i know much about how to intepret it. Sounds easy when Prof (well-known cardiologist in my University) taught us, but then my brain has cramped in half an hour time after his teaching. Haih....pity my brain, has to go for resuscitation than my heart. Haha

Clegg Scholarship....

I finally decided to apply for Clegg scholarship though I might be thinking of taking 1 month of my selective to be in the hospital. Anyway, I will just give it a try and see how it go. If I can get it then it’s my fate since they are only accepting 4 students from the whole world. If not,I might just choose other destination for my selective and elective. haha

Anyway, it's the last 2 days for application. So, i might as well give it a try.

Miss her!!!!!!!!

I was shopping in the store in the town, more of walking around actually after the IMS over at 4pm. Well, i didn't really enjoy walking around there without any purpose but just felt that i need some walk after whole week of studying at home and Hosp. Anyway, i didnt make the full use of the walk, wasted it actually as i was thinking about her all day round when shopping in the Store.





I started to think of the time we were holding hands together, wondering here and there in shopping complex just to search for earrings.Haha....I really whished that she was there by my side when i was walking in the Store. However, i know deep in my heart that its going to take few more years before she can actually walk by my side. Haih....i will just have to be patient enough to wait for her to come back here....

Didn’t sleep enough!!!!!!!!

Haih…, it has been a tough day for me, just wouldn’t be able to find out the countless yawn that I have been having since this morning starting at around 8am. I yawned in the car on the way to IMU, during CP with Dato S. and also in the afternoon during TBL. My sleep cycle was disrupted this few days due to some unknown reason (not liver failure- change of sleeping pattern.). I still sleep during the night, but was getting myself adjusted to just entering my dream before the time that I should. Usually, I will doze off before 12am especially when I was HOLDING A BOOK and LYING on the BED. There was yet a record that I didn’t fall off sleep on the bed though I tried to. So pathetic!!!!!

Anyway, I will just need to keep myself off the bed during the waking hours. Haha

Hopefully by that way, I wouldn’t waste so much of time on being a LANZHU- lazy pig!!!!!

Memorable day as Medical students

Wah, today is really an “experiencing day”, especially when oncalling in the hospital at night. I was only able to reach home by 11:30pm.I managed to go quite an IV line setting, a few venupuncture and a culture and sensivity of the blood. Well, somehow I found that I perform better at night, still not sure why. I feel that I was not so nervous though the hands still shake more or less. Haha

Apart from that, S & JA said something that make me feel a bit more confident. She said: “ You good lah, got that kind of doctor look”- in Chinese of course. Haha. Anyway, I just want to say you will portray to others whatever you’re feeling. If you feel confident enough, yes u will be a great doctor. On the contrary, if you think you are going to fail each time, there is no way that you will overcome this matter. I think everyone know about this fact however was ignored due to various reason. haha

Dislodged jaw and laryngospasm!!!!!!

Another day of feeling “knowing nothing” in my student life instead of 2 and a half years of studying in medicine. It’s just quite of an embarrassment actually to said that I actually know only a little bit of medicine, probably just touching on the ‘surface of the water’. And, I was really fascinated by almost all the lecturers from IMU. Some of the lecturers are great and so knowledgeable that our jaw might drop (TMJ dislocation) at the end of the teaching session. J

Honestly, it’s only now that I feel I will not be regretting entering into IMU.

We had a few discussions on the patients in the PD wards today. When it’s my turn to present, I get my own disorder →→→ LARYNGOSPASM (throat spasm).Haih….Hate it when it happened at that moment of time. My voice got stucked and it’s really a great difficulty in getting the word out from my throat as if my throat just got sloughed off. It’s really terrible that I might not be able to get a single word out from my mouth. It’s doesn’t really recover even when I tried to relax my body. Anyway, I was too anxious at the time that I wouldn’t be able to relax myself well. Instead of getting palpitation, I get laryngospasm that time. Hopefully, I can figure out something to deal with it soon or else I could be getting trouble in the coming exam.

26/11/07

Here comes another post of mine. This week is really my blur week, there are so many still that I do not know about medical stuffs.

Today I was really feeling guilt of being late of my normal wake up. I have forgotten to actually set my alarm clock so that I can wake up in time, only when my “twin” miscalled me that I know there is something wrong. When I looked at the clock, damn….I am going to be late for PD session as there is only 15 more minutes for me to go about to before the time I need to reach PD. Anyway, it’s a raining day, no wonder I can still continue sleeping without knowing it. Haha

But, the poor pity guy would have to wait for me to prepare myself up. Haih…feel quite guilty that Kf need to drive with “flying wing” on his car than what he usually does. Though he keep on saying nevermind, but I know that deep in the heart no one will be happy about it as we also will be having Cp with PK this morning. Hmm…sorry to say but she was rather make us more confusing when we were already in a confused state.

There was 1 thought that coming to me throughout the day…I think a very useful one if we really think of it. Should medical student be taught on communicating skills? Not jus those “simple irrelevant BS thingy”, I mean an effective communication skills which we will be able to built the rapport with anyone or rather patient in a split seconds. Sometimes, I supposed all of us wonder that why some people we met just manage to built a good rapport or relationship with anyone that they came across. Try looking and observe those of your friends which can “hooked” with anyone almost instantly and immediately. And, I did wonder how did they manage to do that? Of course, I am still wondering.

Another thing I did notice, most of us don’t really know how to communicate with others. It’s that others are not feeling good on us? Or that we simply don’t click on each other? Or it’s just the matter of whether we make the efforts and the so-called “tricks” to tune into the person frequency, just like a radio? Go and think about it….

Hehe, I am still exploring this, so wouldn’t be able to tell anyone anything about this.

By the way, I think the main key point to our daily interaction will be “THINK POSITIVELY”. Well, maybe you think that you already know this all the while but think back, are you practicing it? It’s all because of all the messages that we keep on getting from the generation before or maybe even from anyone in our surroundings. For example, all the while you were only thinking about “I DON’T WANT to feel uncomfortable in mixing around with my group of friends”. Instead of worry about that, why don’t you ask yourself what is the things that you actually want and tell youself what you really wanted.

“I DON’T WANT to feel uncomfortable in mixing around with my group of friends”

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“ I will enjoy myself mixing around with my friends”

Try it with any other things!!!!!!!

Nov Hypnotherapy class

To be honest, this few days was rather tiring for me. I need to find out a way to get my research done and i need to attend my hypnotherapy class in the weekend. Besides that, i am also trying to get my reports and case summaries done.

Well, this 2 days class ended quite earlier as there were not much contents to be taught. Most of the time it was focusing on the theory part. Peter was the one giving us the lecture. Actually, it seems like he is preferred by many of us as he has been lecturing us for quite a few weekend. Undeniably,his pronounciation of words is definitely better than some of the LCCH lecturers. No wonder so many of us liked him coming and coming again. But, he served himself right as he was able to give the answers that we wanted from him almost every time.

Hmm...., I will post up the other interesting part of the classes soon...If i got the time and internet as my router ended up day dreaming somewhere. Haha

Blogging for the good of myself and others

Hmm..., it has been a long time that i haven't really go on blogging again as there was always reasons for me to feel that i was not going to blog. Anyway, this might be another new beginning of new life for my new blog- human-redapple which actually signify human purest heart. It has been hidden by most of us, deeply inside our body.


I am seeking the truth out of this, how human is actually getting farther and distance from their sanity. All of us did, in some partof our life, forgot that we are just normal human being and the truth is we does forgot how to treat others as human when we get older.